Is it a test of wills if only one person is in on it?

What do we think?

Say you decide to take a stand in a relationship, but silently. You tell yourself of course but not the other person. Is it a test of wills only against yourself? To see how long you can stay in your stance?

You're in a form of a relationship albeit a casual one. Its been going on for months and maybe you want more out of it. Maybe.. But you finally realize your doing all the work in keeping the relationship going, making the calls, sending the texts, etc. And plus since you maybe want more out of it you want them to feel the same and contact you from time to time. Make you feel wanted.

So one night you decide amazing sex doesn't mean you have to give up your self respect. (I know this prompts you to ask - you dont? - no you don't) You get up get dressed and leave. On the way home you make yourself a promise, "I will not reach out anymore. I will not call or text. He will have to contact me."

Now you think this person isn't too happy that you walked out, that you made them finally feel how you have been feeling; used, shitty, etc. But your not 100% sure. Mainly because you know the relationship is exactly how they want it.

So you stick to your guns but its tough, you haven't heard from them and your getting an itch that really only they can scratch. Your becoming like an addict itching for the next fix and forcfully stopping yourself from texting.

Do they know? That you finally hit your level and they are now forcing your hand to contact them? Or do they not know and just think your busy?

I think I figured this on out on my own. Its a test of wills against yourself. One you must win.